Peace for the Physicals

I have decided to start going for hypnotherapy. I didn’t really think it was something I a) needed or b) would work, but I felt the universe pushing me towards this and I am a firm believer in listening to the universe if you hear it shouting at you.

My 1^st session was taken up with my ‘therapist’ “S” getting to know me a bit – she asked a few questions and she did 2 ‘tests’. The 1^st was to determine whether I was a ‘right brain’ or a ‘left brain’ person as there are different approaches the therapist will use for the 2 different types.

I am almost smack dab in the middle which I found rather interesting. I think that is my Virgo sun and my Gemini moon which drive those 2 opposites. My logical Virgo and my scatty Gemini battling for supremacy? Nice to know some part of me is well balanced at least!

The other test was to determine whether I fall into an ‘emotional’ or a ‘physical’ relationship model personality type.

If asked without understanding what the 2 meant, I would have guessed I was an ‘emotional’ as I am a volatile, easily triggered person who reacts first and thinks second. However she does a very long questionnaire and we discovered that I am a 98% physical.

The 'physicals' have these core values, prioritised as follows:

1)      Relationship / sex

2)      Family

3)      Friends

4)      Career / financial security

Career and financial security are only important as they enable me to have my family and relationship here in SA.

My primary need is to be loved and I need romantic gestures. This really surprised me as I am sooo not a romantic. But I do thrive on the validation which Mr Kitten gives me – he tells me daily I am beautiful and that he loves me. He seldom buys me flowers however he will make me coffee in bed and buy me choccies, so those are good enough for me on the ‘gesture’ front!

My primary fear is rejection or abandonment.

I found this all very enlightening.

We did do a brief session of hypnotherapy and she took me to meet my inner child. Then she asked me to visualise a word – I had no conscious thought of where this word was generated, but the word ‘peace’ came into my head.

So this is my word to help me reprogram my inner child ‘dysfunction’. She is helping me to understand why I react in the way I do to outside triggers, and hopefully to get to a point where I react only to the actual situation without overlying my previous history onto each current situation and therefore react irrationally.

In other words, she is trying to help me find that inner peace I so desperately seek.

Healing in Altered States

Last night I went to a hypnosis event, there was a speaker over from Portugal who is a psychiatrist (I think? or a therapist?) annyyyway, she is here and she was presenting on 'Deep Healing in Altered States' and just talked about some of her personal experiences with treating people.

One of the things she mentioned was a patient who was coming to her for phobia of fires, she could not even bear to be in the same room when a fire was lit. She regressed her patient and found that she had been in a fire - when she was still in the uterus!

The patient had no knowledge of this, but she rang her mom to ask her and found out that yes, when her mom was 5 months pregnant she was in a fire. By discovering the root of the issue she was able to heal the patient.
I found this fascinating as my daughter has been seeing a therapist for her anxiety issues. She is the only one of my 3 kids who has these issues with fear and anxiety, yet she comes off as the most confident of the three.

When I was pregnant with her, her father had beaten me so badly that he dislocated my shoulder. He was kicking me and punching me, I curled up into a tight ball to protect the baby and luckily all the damage was done to me, not her.

But then maybe she did get damaged - maybe her soul has been damaged. Maybe the high levels of fear I felt were passed to her - and she has internalised this energy?

However, she has no idea of the depth of the abuse I suffered from her father. I do not want her to know that. Not because of shame, not because of anything other than I don't want that to contaminate her relationship with her father. The damage he did to me and the issues we had between us were between us. I always felt that the 2 parents in a divorce should not involve the children in their dramas.

But now I am in a sticky spot - do I tell her this? Do I speak directly to the therapist and not tell C? I just want to help her heal - I do not want to rake up any past issues for her to deal with.

Any advice is welcome - even from you secret readers who never comment or tell me you read my blogs....I know you are there! I am asking the universe for advice and I await the response.....if you are my messenger then come chat.