The Curious Kitten

I'm not the sort of person who asks a lot of questions when I meet people. I may be curious, but I've learned that if I ask questions then people feel the need to do the same. And I have a complicated past. My life reads like a novel. When I let out little snippets of my past, people think I am joking. Or just being dramatic. But nope, that is just my life. I also know that once people start on the path of inquisition, it will be no time at all before it comes out that my children grew up with their father, while I was in Europe, they were here in SA living with their father. And as soon as that part of my story is revealed, the judgment starts. Male or female, they are shocked by this knowledge. And even though they may not say anything at all judgmental, I see it in their eyes. I've seen that look before. In almost everyone's eyes. 'A mother who didn't raise her children? What is wrong with her?' I have a friend I met on Twitter, she doesn't have kids, she never seemingly wanted them. She has never given me that look, she just accepts me at face value. Accepts me for the offbeat, slightly eccentric person I am. And for that, I love her dearly. I don't feel I need to explain the details of why my kids were raised in SA to everyone I meet. It is none of their business. So if you meet me and I don't ask you a lot of questions, it is not that I am not curious, I am. But I know it's a trade off, if you reveal yourself, then you expect the same. And I only give myself away to those I trust. I have women I see regularly who know the minimum about me. I do not trust easily. So if you are one of the people I do decide to trust with my intimacies, I hope you can resist giving me that 'look'. Believe me, you could never judge me as harshly as I judge myself.